got the feeling, again

Will I be writing about 'love'? Well, it's not. It is just about the feeling that I have these past days - boredom, hopeless, and hatred..

I thought that landing a job will make me better. It will make me happy as I can have things that I needed and wanted easily. But beyond that, the feeling of boredom to have a routine of work and home makes me lazy. Am I not interested in my job anymore? I can't tell. I still love being online but I don't like talking to customers on the phone. The job I have relates me to my unfinished course but I wanted to focus more on the scripts and to deliver the exact scripts to calm and please people on the phone..

..And, there comes a family problem. I am really hopeless. No matter what I do to be good that never in my life I've been such a hard headed son, I shouldered the burden. I tried my best(it could be that I haven't give my all) but nothing happens. This hatred is still felt though sometimes it is less..

With work, I got bad stats this month. I bet that I might be a candidate for the wire tapping (call monitoring) next month. huhuhu. *sigh.

first time voter - winnability issue

..Early morning waking up, and late night still alive! All I hear on the TV and read on the newspaper are those event about the incoming elections.

It was said to be that for you to be a candidate as a senator, you need to have machinery and that a 10 million pesos is not enough for you to have a status of winnability.

Huh?! my eyes bulged and my ears pinged to that! Even if you win a lottery, that will not be enough for you to pursue as a candidate for the election. Some of the aspirants opted not to, since they had the lack of financial capability. And, what do I hear about those candidates joining the Administrative's side in which they were given those millions for them to use for their campaign. huh?! grrr! where did they acquire those money if their salary will never sum up and equal to it?

I just realized it now. I am new registered voter. This will be my first time to vote for the election of our Philippine public officials. It turned out that no one, I believe, works honestly and with justice. And, there's no way for me to, but choose the lesser evil.

Tryin To Get The Feeling Again

I'm just bored, but found a nice revival song from Christian Bautista..

-Artist: Barry Manilow as sung on "Greatest Hits" -Arista A2L 8601
-peak Billboard position # 10 in 1976
-Words and Music by David Pomeranz

At any moment she'll be walking through that door
She won't find me behind it
cause the feeling is gone and
just won't come back anymore
I work so hard to find it

I've been up, down, trying to get the feeling again
All around, trying to get the feeling again
The one that make me shiver
Make my knees start to quiver
Every time she walks in

I've looked high, low
Everywhere I possibly can
But there's just no trying to get the feeling again
It seemed to disappear as fast as it came

read every book
look for every meditation and poem
just to bring home that old sweet sensation
but it ain't no used to me, trying to get the feeling again

Where did it run to? I thought I'd done all that I could
To keep the love burning
But whatever I've done, I just haven't done it too good
Cause all that's left is yearning

I've been up, down, trying to get the feeling again
Like a bloodhound searching for a long lost friend
could you help me rediscover
the way to re be her lover once again

read every book
look for every meditation and poem
just to bring home that old sweet sensation
But it ain't no used to me, to try and get that feeling
I want to get that feeling again

I've been up, down, trying to get the feeling again
I've been up, down, trying to get the feeling again
I've been up, down, trying to get the feeling again
trying to get the feeling again

what will i do on three days off?

tonight, it'll be the last day of the week before the three days off from work. Got bad calls this early morning! grr! Well, for sure, I'll still be going home late noon tomorrow. I will be for an OT and somehow surfing the net for some stuffs...

Ideas come up from the team that we will have movie marathon, but that was not properly agreed though. So, I bet that after sometime at the office and going back home, the perfect place will definitely be - bed. And, there goes my eyes open wide at night until early morning and the only option to take away the boredom is the TV. But that will somehow bore me after sometime.. lol!

There will still be two days left then after that.. wtf! I don't have anything planned to do on those days, hmmmm? Any ideas you have or you can invite me for a gig, too..

happy valentines day

O ang pag-ibig nga naman sadyang makapangyarihan. Hindi mo akalaing mag papaalala pa ng petsa para gunitain sya.

Ngunit, paano pag single ka sa araw ng mga puso? Mag kukulong kana lang ba sa bahay at igapos ang iyong sarili sa higaan upang magparusa sa pag-ibig na dapat iyo ring naramdaman? hello? mali ka!

Marami pa ang dapat mangyari sa araw na ito. Hindi mo kailangan ng someone special. Hindi mo lang alam na marami sa paligid mo ang higit na nagmamahal sa iyo. Pwedeng sila ang iyong i-date sa araw na ito.

At, marami pa ang dapat pwede mong gawin. Sa araw na ito ay hindi lang pag-ibig sa iba ang ibig sabihin, higit sa lahat ay ang pagmamahal mo sa iyong sarili para mahalin ka ng iba ang siyang dapat..

p.s. apologies for the visitors not able to understand the language, i just felt to write it this way! hehehe:)

still awake

At this early morning, I am still awake. Well, it's because all afternoon I just went to sleep and was not able to get done what my mom let me do. huhuhuhu.

I went to the the office to get Maggie since actually we had planned to do an OT at the office with emails. We went after to Jean's apartment just for fun watching movies.

After two movies done, we decided to go home but I opted not. I don't have anything to do there. It will just bore me! I went then to net express to go online.

I hate this girl in front of my station who is so annoying talking to someone on the phone with a different language.

Anyways, I'm on a PC with a camera and took the opportunity to take a personal shut!

13th passenger

Oh! last night, unexpectedly, we had a small talk with the 13th passenger in a text. I never thought this dude would text me. I thought that by years passed he also changed. One thing, because he knows something about me unto him. lol!, you know what I mean?

Well, it was just about kumustahan. It is about what life we have now and everything else. Honestly, just missin' this dude and the whole class of the highschool Computer Education.

Guess who is he?

his name is Chris

We've been having this night schedule almost done. In a week or two, we will be in a swing shift and I do love that sked.

But, yeah it will somehow makes us miss that Jollibee boy (service crew) at the Jollibee store down from our office at the IT park. Well, it is just a secret. His name is "Chris". Yeah, we know him because of course he have his name plate tagged with him. lol!

With his charming smile and aura, we do really appreciate him - Jean, Maggie and Me.

We did some stolen shots of pictures. But, grrrr! we can't really find a nice angle to get it.

Funny Love Quotes...

I was just looking around and found this funny loves quotes on the web. Which one do you think is the funniest?



Favorite Funny Love Quotes #1
I know that somewhere in the Universe exists my perfect soulmate -- but looking for her is much more difficult than just staying at home and ordering another pizza.
Alf Whit

Favorite Funny Love Quotes #2
I was nauseous and tingly all over. I was either in love or I had smallpox.
Woody Allen

Favorite Funny Love Quotes #3
Gravitation can not be held responsible for people falling in love.
Albert Einstein

Favorite Funny Love Quotes #4
There is a place you can touch a woman that will drive her crazy. Her heart.
Melanie Griffith, Milk Money

Favorite Funny Love Quotes #5
I recently read that love is entirely a matter of chemistry. That must be why my wife treats me like toxic waste.
David Bissonette

Favorite Funny Love Quotes #6
Love is grand; divorce is a hundred grand.
Unknown

Favorite Funny Love Quotes #7
Happiness is the china shop; love is the bull.
H. L. Mencken

Favorite Funny Love Quotes #8
What the world really needs is more love and less paper work.
Pearl Bailey

Favorite Funny Love Quotes #9
You can't buy love, but you can pay heavily for it.
Henny Youngman

Favorite Funny Love Quotes #10
You can't put a price tag on love, but you can on all its accessories.
Melanie Clark

Noy kulas: Didto na mahigugma sa lalake

I am just browsing the internet now, since i do not have any ideas on what to post, let me share to you something I've read about a tainted love. I've read this online at the Kalingawan of Superbalita.





Dear Noy Kulas,

Maayong adlaw diha kanimo. Itago lang ko sa ngalang Mark. Akong suliran about sa akong life nga ambot kon sakto ba or di.

Dapat matured na man unta kog edad kahibawo na man unta ko kon unsay sayop ug unsay sakto. I’m 26 years old, working na as office administrative staff sa usa ka dakong kompaniya.

Sa batan-on pa ko, six years ago, naa koy uyab for almost six years sab. Naa na miy usa ka anak but unfortunately wa mi magkadayon sa girl nga inahan sa bata. Niadto man gung higayuna, I was still a student. Then gisungog ko sa panahon nga wa gyud ko kakita og trabaho.

Ambot kon unsa nga wa gyud mi magkasinabot ug nagkalalis mi about ana ug nakadisesyon mi nga magbuwag. Ang girl naa na sa America kay naminyo og Kano ug gidala ang among anak. Wa na ko makadungog og balita about nila. Sakit na kaayo. Ako serious ug disidido na sa paghimo og pamilya sa bisan unsa nga paagi but wa ako niya hatagi og chance. Ang story about sa girl ug sa akong anak ako nang gikalimtan ug sa hinay hinay ko ni move-on. I dated many girls, nag-uyab-uyab nga di seryuso aron lang mawala ang kasakit nga akong gibati sa nahitabo.

I know sayop kay daghan ang nasakitan sa akong gipangbuhat kay sila seryuso diay samtang ako wa maghimong serious sa relasyon. Sa kadugay I decided nga di na ko magbinuang.

Paglabay na sa panahon naa koy naila-ila nga usa ka guy. Friend ni siya sa ako sab nga high school friend. I know bisexual siya apan di mailhan. Didto nagkasuod mi og maayo and then akong gi-share akong mga problems about sa nahitabo kay he really listened to me. Wa ko magdahom nga nahigugma na diay ko kaniya. Happy ko sa iyang kiliran kon magkauban mi. Didto niya akong nalimtan ang akong past. Love kaayo nako siya.

Naa gani siyay mga friend nga gay nga suya kaayo niya nga naa pa diay kunoy true love these days. And I’m serious sa iyaha. Naa koy girlfriend nga usa ka model apan wa man koy feeling ug kaniya man nuon nako na-feel ang love nga akong gipangita. Nakonsensya ko, akong gibuwagan akong girlfriend. Sayop ba ni, Noy?

Ambot wa ko makasabot sa kong na-feel karon nga naglibog ko. Bayot ba ko? Makigrelasyon ba ko sa usa ka same sex, means bayot na? Sa akong kahimtang karon ako lang gisunod kon asa ko malipay. Gisunod ko lang ang gipitik sa akong kasingkasing. Kon moabot ang panahon, di gyud ko magmahay. I know daghan ang maka-relate sa akong problema and I hope mahatagan ko nimo sa sakto nga tambag, Noy Kulas.

MARK

Mark,

Di pa ko makaingon nga bayot ka na tungod kay nahigugma ka na sa usa ka lalake. Kay una pa man sab nang nahitabo kanimo ug wa ka pa sab maibog og laing lalake. Posibleng ingon niana ang nahitabo kanimo tungod kay diha lang kaniya nimo nasugatan ang tawo nga kahibawo maminaw kanimo nga wa mo masugati sa imong mga amiga kanhi. Na-share nimo ang imong mga suliran hinungdan nga na-develop ang imong pagbati ngadto kaniya.

Hinuon posibleng sa ngadto ngadto mahingpit kang bayot kay nakagusto ug nakigrelasyon ka na man og same sex. Busa di layo ang posibilidad nga mahingpit kang bayot.

Di man sab ko moingon nga sayop ang imong gibuhat nga nakigrelasyon kag sama kanimo nga lalake. Although nga kon norm sa katilingban ang hisgutan, no-no man gyud nang mao nga relasyon apan sa ako nang gikaingon di ko gustong mo-judge og act sa usa ka tawo. Tinuod daghan kaayo ang close gays ug mga lalakeng dunay same sex nga relasyon nga ilang gitago tungod kay mauwaw sila. Tungod man gud kay wa pa ni madawat sa atong society ug ang mosud o naa na sa sud niini nakasinati og social stigma. Kay bisan gani ang ilang kaugalingong pamilya di man makadawat kay mauwaw.

Apan kon unsa ang imong kalipay ug asa ka makabaton og kalinaw, mao ni ang sunda. Sakto man gani ang pagpakigbuwag nimo sa imong girlfriend tungod kay wa ka na may gugma kaniya niadtong higayuna.

But, mas maayo sab nang magpa-counseling ka aron mas makakita ka gyud sa sitwasyon sa imong kinabuhi karon.

Pag-ampo kanunay sa Ginuo nga giyahan ug lamdaghan ka. I know ang imong kasingkasing ug huna-huna nagkinahanglan og kalinaw ning krisis karon sa imong kinabuhi. Naa kanunay ang Diyos magtubag sa atong panginahanglan Kaniya kon ikaw mosangpit. Diha Kaniya matubag mo ang imong mga pangutana sa kaugalingon ug kinabuhi.

Timan-i sab nga ang yawa mayo kaayong moduwa sa atong kaugalingon, labi na kon naa kita sa krisis ug kaguol.

NOY KULAS

the PUMPing

I never had been to the previous location of the PUMP, a disco bar. But, as they say, it moved to a place in Mango. And, there we went as we've planned to do after Mel Grace texted me for a night out with some of other friends in high school.

Just for fun and to save money, we walked from Ryan's House in Urgello to Mango where PUMP is located. To make sure that we will not be charged for the entrance and to avoid embarassment, one of us ask if we'll pay for entrance fee and luckily, there is none! wheew! and that saves us all.



As we go inside, the place is crowded and there is no table left available for us now. We went forward and we can't even dance to the beat of the music.

But, eventually we find a table for the six of us - me, Mel Grace, Reena, Ryan, Niño, and Jed. The first set was ordered and was followed by a second one. The night gets alive as the crowd dances until morning. But, the second set we had was not done and we left the two bottles untouched.

The sun doesn't peep yet at the sky when we leave PUMP. The same way we did when went to the place, we just walk back to Ryan's house.

It was not over yet, we still waited at the front of the E-mall for the sun to come out. I bought a newspaper to read and three - Mel Grace, Niño and Jed, was sleeping while sitting. lol!

p.s. the picture is not taken at the place

it's my night off

Yep!

It's my night off today and tomorrow. I am happy enough since I feel ill today and I don't want have a sick leave as much as possible. But then, I stayed still at the office after the shift. As I am blogging right now I just had one email reply for a customer and build my temporary site.

And, oh! let me post some of the pictures we just had with Maggie and Jean when we went for an hour break from work.

maggie and me at Rai-Rai Ken, ground floor of i2 park building

pose for a self-pix to myself

maggie and me, once again

that's jean and me.
are you that hip to be one of us?

in my list for v-month

Hey! I just remember people from past and present that I wanted to spend a night out or simply hang out at the mall.

Here is my list:

Michael John Bardos
Johnry Gac-ang
Gwape (forgot the name)
Mark Joseph Francisco
Rudolph Naputo
Charlie Mayne Sipi
Joseph Roland Tejana
Jesus Anthony Suan


Carlo Alivo
Shira Mae Barbadillo
Nidie Coraza
Jeramie Pepito
Jullan
Anne Handayan
Jennibeth Roa
Jennibeth Rosal
Vladimir June Mondano
Jake
Leah Laurito
Gwendolyn Licayan
Erwin Labuca
John Carlo Florentino

..and still adding more,